Even if I watch it, now I just find it disgusting

Even when I’m tempted to go and relapse, I’ll watch it, get an erection for the first initial minutes, but it’s like something has become hard wired into my brain that this behaviour is destructive and wrong and very quickly any sort of mood I was in prior to doing it turns sour and I’ll just carry on with my day after. Can almost feel my brain starting to rewire and seek out actual intimacy to quell those feelings.