relapse.

i'm not back at the streak i was at before i last relapsed. i got to 35 and felt invincible and then got too triggered out of nowhere in a way i couldn't have predicted. i was sexting with this girl i had a sexual relationship with. i had it in my head for some reason that it's okay bc it's not porn it's a real woman but wtf? especially bc she lives oversees there is only potential for artificial stimulation and not real sex. don't fall into this trap brothers. triggers can come out of no where and especially when you put yourself in situations like that. avoid all interactions like this. choose real sex and real health but most importantly; relapse is a part of recovery. it's not the end of the world. you will climb back up and then some just like i have. i relapsed at 35 days and now here i am at 36, confident and more wise and cautious prepared to get to that 90 day. this habit has caused me such noticeable problems with my irl sex life and i am hellbent on reversing this damage and restoring my sexual ability and health. as you should be. CHOOSE LKFE. CHOOSE REAL SEX. CHOOSE HEALTH jah bless