I’m so stressed out
There have been some pretty rough moments today that admittedly have been tough. I failed 2 nights ago and ever since I’ve just been super anxious, unmotivated, depressed and super down on myself. I want to be alone, I dont want to look anyone in the eye, especially women. I feel so ashamed and guilty. I don’t want to ever fail again. Porn makes me hate myself, it makes me hate my life. I just want to be over this addiction. I want my life to begin. I want love. I want to be loved. I want to just be happy.
I have been stuck in this porn/masturbation addiction for 43 YEARS! Probably most of the time I went to PM, it was to deal with stress/anxiety for the dopamine release. When I started this journey to break free of the PM addiction for good, I recognized I needed an alternative dopamine release (and not sugar, because I’m already overweight—and sugar makes me feel terrible after a couple hours). I used this app’s Talk to Melius AI therapy tool and a little other research and found many other ways to get a dopamine release: Exercise, getting out in sunshine, being social (with good people that won’t drag you into bad things), helping others, being creative, fixing things, making things look better (including yourself), getting enough quality sleep, music, meditation, mindfulness, a cup of coffee, a cold shower, standing, reducing inflammation (avoid the 4 worst inflammatories in our diets: sugar, GMO grains, pasteurized dairy, seed oils(vegetable, canola, peanut, corn; instead use olive, avocado, coconut), and otherwise eat a healthy diet (dark chocolate, fresh fruit & veggies are tasty and great and give an immediate dopamine release!) with focus on lots of healthy water and little sugared drinks.