Stuck in a rut

Been feeling like shit a lot lately. Mostly coming from my girl being about literally anything and everything I do. Causes me to go in a state of “i don’t give a fuck I’m tired and need a break” and I relapse. Even now after relapsing I don’t really feel regret for it? I know I shouldn’t have done it but what else do I do other than sit there and feel the feelings that won’t go away. Doesn’t help that I don’t have a place to healthily let out that sexual energy, in a LDR (I’ve heard enough “what’s the point of LDR” I have my reasons and this situation is just a bit of a phase, LDR is hard for her too) so I can’t go talk to other girls, can’t go anything with my girl, so it’s kinda just sitting there building up until I relapse. I will say my habits have significantly improved, but I had a great steak going until this month, and I plan on bring that back starting today. 90 days here I come