I Promise to Myself

Today is day 1 of changing my life. I will not go back to porn and jerking off. I will fight every demon in my head and use reason before my actions. I’ve lived too long with this sickness in me and I know that there is a way out- with hard hard work, dedication, and determination. I will stay committed and every time I feel the urge to relapse back to my roots, I will remember and pain I’ve caused her and myself. The shame I have has never been greater than right now in my life. I want to use this trial and tribulation to make me a stronger individual and a more loving boyfriend. God has not put any obstacles in front of me that I cannot get over - so I will. Today starts my journey of a lifetime.