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Day 8
by Aang
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I’m 29 years old and have always struggled with SSA. I grew up in a Christian household and got saved in 2017. I’ve never acted on my SSA, except for watching porn. And I’ve never told anyone in my entire life of this struggle. It’s literally the thorn in my side that Paul speaks about in Roman’s 7. The Lord has been so faithful to keep me, and I have a beautiful wife and a beautiful baby. I still get tempted, but I turn to Christ. Sometimes, however, I feel so disconnected from other men at my church, like I can never really open up to anyone about my struggles. I ultimately think it’s the devil trying to keep me shackled in shame for having this affliction I never asked for, but it’s so deeply rooted I resolved years ago to take this thorn to my grave. I have a deep rooted fear of being rejected by the people I love. And now that I have a child I just pray that they don’t have to deal with this ever. I don’t want them to ever this much shame and guilt. It’s unbearable sometimes. I’ve cried myself to sleep countless nights, but the Lord being rich in mercy gives me peace in the mornings and I go on seeking to live for his glory. Stay strong brothers and sisters!

Comments (2)
Aang108d ago

Brother, thank you so much for the encouragement. But I wouldn’t even know how to start that conversation.

Jordan108d ago

Amen brother. I can relate to this in many ways. I’m also 29 and have grown up in the church. I also struggle with porn from a very young age. I’ve finally opened up to some loved ones and I’m actively seeking help. Through the grace of God and his unfailing mercy I have a new found confidence not just in myself but in God’s plan in my life despite my past. Opening up to trusted individuals has been such a blessing and weight lifted off my shoulders. I encourage you to open up to someone you trust and can be transparent with. Pray that God will direct you to that person and trust that he will Continue to make ways out of no way. Our God loves to operate in the realm of the impossible. What is impossible by man’s standard is possible with God. This burden is not yours to carry, give it to the one who is strong enough and wants to carry it for you, that’s our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Love Brother and God Bless

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