Today is a struggle

Man oh man it’s been a while since I had a day like this. Feel like I’m gonna burst. God I surrender all of these urges all of this list all of this desire to you. Father I’m in pain, I feel uncomfortable, I feel impatient. I’m telling myself the story that I am incapable, hopeless, unlucky, weak, impotent, a failure, not good enough, useless. That’s the story I’m telling myself. The truth: I am inspiring, influential, capable, strong, courageous, brave, beautiful, sober, honest, kind, helpful, useful, smart, winner and I am human.