I realised
I didn’t mentally have the urge to relapse, it was purely my flesh feining for it. Even in the act of relapsing I mentally didn’t even enjoy it, it was more like doing a favour for my flesh. It’s so stupid because I don’t like the act of doing it, I hate everything about it, I’m focussing on my relationship with Christ and that so I know I’ll be a man that controls his list and sexual desires one day, it starts with disciplining my flesh and training it, so it doesn’t fall short to silly urges. It doesn’t mean I’m going to fight the lust, I am going to run from it, and stay on track though. God bless anyone reading this and I hope you all, with me make it out. I’ve never made a whole month of not doing it, my best was 28 days, I can’t wait to be sober for life, this makes me feel sorry for those who suffer with actual drug addictions, well anyone with addictions. Ok I’ll stop talking now
Isaiah, Paul says For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. Romans 7:15 If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Romans 7:16 Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. Romans 7:17 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. Romans 7:18 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Romans 7:19 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. Romans 7:20 Flee from sexual immorality you will never be able to fight it. You got this