20-day streak back to 0.
Man, the last 3 weeks I felt like I had control and that I was on the right path to achieving 90 days and more. When I had urges, I would come here and it helped a lot. Last 2 days during the holidays and because I felt more comfortable than usual, the thoughts and urges started coming back. I edged occasionally but noticed each time it got more aggressive. Today it got so bad that it led to me scrolling on IG, next thing you know triggers were everywhere. Fast forward I hopped on the hub and I lost control again. Now I wish I never did it. I realize how much edging can trigger everything again despite telling myself it “doesn’t count” all these years. I’m gonna make a promise to everyone here that edging will be avoided moving forward. Gotta stay hard 💪🏼
I’m using a screen time app in addition to this, it limits time on IG and other apps to a set number of hours a day so I have those apps blocked between 8pm and 10am. The most vulnerable time.