Hard reset

Relapsed hard yesterday. Really hard. Gosh I feel so stupid. I make the worst decisions, stayed up for hours. I was good for four days. FOUR DAYS! My best is a week, maybe two. I feel like I’ll never be free sometimes. I just want to be better. I hate how I do this and I want to get better, but holy cow it’s hard. I thought the first time on this app would be the last time for me, I guess not Now I try again