Strengthening Faith

Hey friends, I just completed day 17 and instead of talking about how it’s been so far I’d like to bring something much more important. You see I’ve been a devoted christian for about 3 years now, I’ve fallen in love with the scripture and Jesus and he’s saved my life in many ways. Now at the start my faith was great it was the new comer high you could say. I was abusing porn much less but that all changed. After some time I found myself watching more and more. But at the same time I was learning more and more about the faith. This led to a very very difficult mental battle. Whenever I’d fall into porn again and again every time i’d feel so much guilt, so much to the point where it would turn me further away from God as i’d be too embarrassed to face him. 2025 has been a horrendous year for my faith, my addiction got worse, I started drinking casually again, I stopped going church and praying it was a mess. I knew that instead of running away from God I should be asking for forgiveness instead. Idk if it was my pride or guilt but I just couldn’t bring myself to it. This is the reason why I got this app and why I am pouring all my energy into stopping this filth in my brain. Im saying all of this as today was my first day where I spent time alone with Jesus, praying and praising him for the first time in a while. It felt great, I know i’m on good path right now and I will overcome the sin that has had me in shackles. This was a long post I don’t expect many to read it tbh I just want to get my feelings out. This said if you are still reading and going thru the same thing, you’re not alone! God is good.