From 65 days to Day 0 — facing the truth, no excuses
Lol. I was trying to fix PE and thought it was a genius idea to train stamina through edging and desensitization — without finishing. Yeah… no. I was wrong 😄 I relapsed by mistake and got a harsh but valuable reminder: No-porn is NOT the same thing as no-fap. Porn wrecks your dopamine. Real life feels “boring” in comparison — and that’s exactly why quitting works. Because real life starts to feel meaningful again. I was 65 days in, and man… I felt incredible. Not because of the number, but because life itself felt different — clearer. Then I relapsed, met my wife shortly after, and the way I looked at her… felt just like it did before I started this journey. I hated that. It was like I had lost the deep emotional connection I had started to rebuild. Also, I’m not giving up edging completely — I’ll be honest about that. But now it’s without porn, and without even any visual aids. And here’s the crazy part: my imagination is dead. My mental fantasies are numb. I can’t even recall memories of real sex from years ago. I realize now I’ll have to rebuild this part of me from scratch. But that’s the beauty of it — no-fap gives me the energy, clarity, and emotional drive to actually create those memories again. Real moments. Real emotions. Real sex, real life. This journey gave me clarity and yeah, more horniness too 😅 — I was noticing women more, sure. But everything — small talk, connection, eye contact — all of it felt natural and alive. Don’t skip out on this guys. It’s worth it. If you fall after a long streak like I did, don’t be ashamed. Be honest. Get back up and keep going. You’ve already proven you can do it. Resetting my counter was painful. But I learned a lot: • First 2 weeks = absolute hell • Weeks 3–4 = smooth • 1 month = hard again • Week 6 = easy AF Then I got overconfident. Thought I had it all figured out. That was my mistake. But I’m not done. I’m starting again — with more self-awareness and new goals. Life without porn is f*cking awesome. I want to keep building that life, not escaping from it. Good luck to everyone. I’m back at day 0 — and ready to go 🥳 And most importantly — don’t lie to yourself. Face the truth, always. That’s how you grow.
Quick edit for clarity: I mentioned no-fap in the post, but what I really meant is no-porn. I’m not doing full no-fap — I still edge sometimes, but now I’m keeping it 100% porn-free, no visual stuff at all. Sorry if that caused confusion. Also — I’m not edging just for fun. I’m working on PE after circumcision. The hypersensitivity didn’t go away, so I’m trying to desensitize gradually, always through fabric, while learning to control my pelvic and lower back muscles. I’ve started Kegels and reverse Kegels, and I’ll be adding workouts soon. I’ve read so many posts here — people who actually fixed PE didn’t just “abstain.” They trained their body and rewired their brain. From now on, after this relapse and everything I’ve learned — I’ll only edge using imagination, no porn, no vids, no pics. And yeah… it’s gonna be a million times harder 🙄