Couldn’t hold back.

I spent my entire day just trying to distract my mind but nothing worked, From working out, to repairing guns, to cooking, to gaming, and basically anything else I could think of nothing would keep it off my mind. And here I am at midnight after giving in because I wasn’t able to sleep due to my mind constantly racing to the thought of porn over and over again. It really gave me a huge reality check to where I am starting out, I kept telling myself that it’s fine and no big deal to do it and that it doesn’t actually affect me, but right after I was done I just started bawling my eyes out, so frustrated with myself and what I’ve turned into. I’ve put so much effort into stopping this terrible habit of mine and I’ve really never put my problems out there for people to see. So in this desperate attempt hold myself accountable I hope that my putting my thoughts into words that it will not only help me but others that are scrolling through these chat hoping to find something strong enough to keep them going a little longer. I hope this helps anyone out there that can relate. I wish everyone the best and wait for the day we can all say we overcame this evil habit.