Day 3: Recap, Tip Suggestion & Side note thoughts.

Currently on day 3, here’s how it’s been: Day 1: I had an intense urge to masturbate, the itch, anxiety, and the shakes. My mistake was doing it one final time before committing to my 30-day challenge. That activated the hormones, making me incredibly horny the entire day. Also, I don’t take that as a relapse because I prepared my self and gave myself that last escape before fully committing. More info on that at the end. Day 2: I woke up with an erection and was able to do it while asleep. Thankfully, I didn’t finish the act, which I would have considered a relapse. Throughout the day, I definitely felt urges from content I saw on social media, and I did touch myself, but I never completed the deed. I think this helped relieve some of the pressure without fully committing to it. Day 3: I can’t share all of today’s experiences since I’m only starting while writing this. However, I can definitely say that I feel different. I no longer wake up with the urge to masturbate. I don’t feel the need to do it either. I suppose if I see content like yesterday, I’ll likely get hard, but I’m glad that on its own, it hasn’t activated like yesterday. As a side note, I understand that simply touching it and teasing myself could potentially lead to a relapse, as I’ve done before. However, I’m grateful that I managed to stay strong this time. I didn’t do it enough to trigger a relapse or get urges, but it was sufficient to alleviate the intense anxiety I felt in the moment. Since I didn’t complete the act, I won’t consider it a relapse, but rather as something that helped me in the moment. Lastly, a potential tip for my fellow users, if quitting cold turkey is challenging for you or comes out of nowhere, try setting a specific date. Make sure to remind yourself repeatedly that you’ll start on that date. In the past month alone, I relapsed 28 times. This happened because I kept saying, “Okay, today I’ll start without prepping my mind.” While it sometimes worked by the next day, I would go crazy with the urges and relapse. But just to clarify, I’m not suggesting that by mentally preparing yourself, you won’t experience those urges or desire to relapse because I certainly have. However, I believe it has helped me maintain mental strength and resist the temptation when those feelings arise. So, I set a goal for myself: by my birthday, June 28th, I want to be completely free from those pesky thoughts and temptations (90 days). So a few days ago, I took some time to release all that energy and indulged in my cravings as much as I wanted to prepare myself for my complete stop and complete my challenge. However, I decided to start with something smaller first: a 30-day challenge! And guess what? I’m still going strong! Three days in, and I haven’t given up yet! I’m proud because the last time I tried this by my own accord I managed one full day and by the next I had given in at night. Not this time. Also, by my own accord, I mean that I have gone longer than two days, but on vacation, and because I literally couldn’t but I wanted to. Sometimes, I would sneak away to do it in hidden places, but rarely. I have gone on two almost two weeks without doing it because of such reasons. But this time I’m trying to do this by my own means, by own choice. I’m ready!