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Your Sister in Christ: Day 11✝️

Day 54
by Mikayla 💟
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Sorry for my inactivity with these posts it’s been a lot. We tried to change our landlords mind about eviction and she said she would be willing to renew our lease for wayyy more than we can afford. So it’s back to the drawing board looking for a home. I feel terrible right now because I lived in this house since I was 6 years old. This is the house where I formed so many memories…even when I started my addiction at 10 years old. It doesn’t feel right moving anywhere else but I know that wherever we move to God has everything worked out for us. I was so depressed about my families living situation..I kinda drank more than I should have. Usually I just drink a little wine not to get too drunk but last night I drank almost an entire bottle. My head was spinning and I got the urge to relapse. Badly. I was telling myself “50 plus days is so good we can try it again next time and go longer” and I was in the process of opening up my laptop before I decided to just shut it off and try and go to sleep. Which I did. I feel disappointed in myself because I almost lost my streak..and I’ll try not to let it happen again. To my siblings in Christ: Michael (both), Robert, Logan, Kathryn, Joshua: Just wanna say again thank you for everything that you guys have helped me with. I wouldn’t have gotten this far if it wasn’t for your support. Love you guys🫶🏾

Comments (8)
You90d ago

Hey, i'm glad you didn't fall into temptation, but you shouldn't drink. Try staying sober minded, and thank you for sharing.- Logan

Michael90d ago

You have prevailed over the devil Mikayla. When temptation grew stronger you said no not today. I wish I had the strength you had when I was faced with temptation when I was at day 32. I'll continue to pray for you and your family to find a new place. I believe in you Mikayla and will never stop believing in you

Michael〽️90d ago

Hey Mikayla, not too sure why you feel disappointed. Even when you were compromised by alcohol, even when you were well on your way to relapsing, even when the devil was throwing all he had at you, you remained steadfast. You said no. That’s something to be proud of! As far as your house situation, I’ll be continuing to pray for you. Didn’t you say something about checking out a house on Sunday? How did that go?

Ezekiel90d ago

I was a month and a half into my journey, I ended getting sick, and i redownloaded twitter and relapsed. It’s been hard to pray and my walk with God has become 100x more difficult and confusing than before. I don’t have friends, nobody around me is on the path of righteousness or they’ve all abandoned it. I don’t want to. But I feel unforgivable way too unforgivable, this hurts because porn genuinely disgust me, I hate thinking about sex all the time. But I don’t know how to control what I think about I just think. I’m giving this another try, I forgive myself but I’m very disappointed and embarrassed.

Nathaniel90d ago

God is fighting for you Mikayla, you are His, Jesus has given you victory, for free, you don’t have to strive for it, He’s given it to you because He loves you, since before the world was made He has loved you. I trust that He will keep you and your mum. Proud of you for resisting the temptation. Pray for me so that I may also receive grace to overcome my temptations. God bless you Mikayla

Malachi90d ago

Thank you, I feel like this is going to strengthen our relationship.

Mikayla 💟90d ago

@Solomon thank you that means a lot🤍. I know that he’s proud that I resisted temptation..but I know he’s sad that I got drunk. I know he said we should be sober minded..and I failed on that end.

Solomon90d ago

Don’t be disappointed in yourself. You reigned in your temptation. God and myself are proud.

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