I’m good until my urges hit

I’ve been on multiple multi week long streaks now but those always end when the extreme urges hit. I feel like I can’t fight the urges where it is genuinely so extreme and I’m at war with my mind. The subtle urges is something I’m good at controlling but when it becomes a whole of me not jacking it, my brain makes me remember the dopamine rush and I tell myself “just once”…. We all know the “just once” is never one time.