A deeper struggle

My Porn addiction annoys me so much. I know why I watch porn and what causes it to trigger but its so hard to rewrite my brain. The biggest reason I watch porn is because I feel lonely, I can’t find or nurture any romantic relationships so I use porn to fill that hole and I know porn =/= emotional fulfillment but it is the closest thing I can get to it. And because of this feeling I often use websites that let me talk to the content creator such as OF or Cam Stars which are so much more addictive than regular porn imo because I get a response of some kind and it is a death spiral for me I can’t seem to get out of. Even if I do get out of it I still feel lonely and so the urge comes back and idk how to rewrite my brain regarding this because wanting romance and affection is such a basic and normal human desire. And I’m sure some people will say focus on friendships but all of my close friends are in a separate state and I can’t easily hang out with them and even If I could it still doesn’t completely fill that desire for relationship because they are two different kinds of relationships. Right now I feel so tempted to go back to OF so I can feel connected and get some kind of attention and affection even if it fake but I so badly don’t want to go back to porn and watch more. I feel so lost and hopeless like i’m doomed to just spend my life to only have intimate relationships through transactional relationships like OF, or Camstars or even an Escort. Unable to find someone I can truly connect with and be close with