Coming back after a big relapse

I pledged to stop watching porn and masturbating in 2025. I was going well (nearly 2 months clean) and I got a gf and things were going well. I couldn’t perform sexually the way I wanted but she was understanding. I broke up with her bc I was feeling guilty and not worthy and ever since I’ve been down in the lumps and relapsed. I broke my streak and went back to older habits. But after a month of pitying myself, I know that I need to change. I am weak, but I won’t accept weakness anymore. I don’t need to get stronger. I must be strong and this is a testament to that.