Day 1
I saw a girl I had a thing for post for the first time in months. My heart dropped when she revealed she’s 6 months pregnant and while I’m happy for her, I was sad I was missing out on a gorgeous woman like her. She looked absolutely stunning in her pregnancy photos. I thought to myself, these are the things I’m missing out on because of my addiction. Not just her but finding a beautiful woman to create a family with. I’m not only addicted to porn but I’m addicted to doom scrolling. So many hot chicks on Instagram and a rollercoaster of emotions as I scroll through TikTok & X. I have so much potential I’m wasting because I spend too much time on this nonsense and it stresses me out. I dig myself an endless hole and I end up filling that hole with the hit of dopamine I get from masturbating. Today I realized I want to be a father within the next 5 years. I want to marry a beautiful woman with strong, traditional moral values. In order to do that, I must be a man with strong, traditional moral values. I must be disciplined and consistent with my work ethic and not fall into the instant gratification I get from these vices. I must be a provider. I must be confident. I must be in shape. I must be financially abundant. Most importantly, I must be faithful to God. I can’t do any of this by myself and I certainly can’t do it while falling for temptation and instant gratification. Pray for me..
I was reading up on the parable of the talents today, and thought about what it took to be a “Good and Faithful Servant”. This is it - God has given you immense potential, skills, abilities, etc. Wasting your life away by being unproductive for the Lord is not the way. You must take action and change, get on the path that God has set out for you, and become a Good and Faithful Servant. Love you brother, God bless