Journey update

Hey fellas. I’m a guy who has struggled with porn since I was 12yo, and now I’m almost 30. I was exposed in a very bad situation and have “tried to quit” several times on my own. I didn’t use apps, faith, just half-attempts of guilt trips and knowing I shouldn’t be doing this. What I’ve done NOW is what is keeping me going. I’ve done three things that I think have helped me tremendously but were not easy at all. 1) I promised God I was done. Not just for him, but for me too. I know I’m capable of so much more than what I’ve been doing. 2) I told two people. I told a work colleague who is spiritual, married, and with kids. All the things that I am and have in my life. Guys, this dude tells me “ I know brother, I had the same addiction. It consumed me. I’ve gotten help and I’ve been clean for almost two years. I am here for you”. And he meant it. It wasn’t a comment he said to make me feel better, he genuinely knew the pain and sickness I am in and leaned into it, he didn’t back away. I also told my wife. Guys, this was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I’m married to a beautiful woman and have been for eight years. We have three children together and a wonderful home. Looking her into the eyes and saying “honey, I use porn and masturbate. I’ve never been able to stop and has used it as a coping mechanism for almost my entire life” was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But you know, it was so liberating. I know have two people who care about me and want to see me get healthier going down this journey with me. I’m not alone anymore and have support, and I take it for what it is. Guys, don’t shame yourselves. Own your faults. Face them. We struggle with porn like an alcoholic does with drinking, face it. It’s beatable. 3) I’ve been in therapy and used this app. I’ve now shred my struggles with my therapist (a third person), and she has helped me get to the root cause of my addiction and how to grow from it. I’ve been clean for 17 days guys and I don’t feel the urge to ever view it again. Sure, I see attractive women and get challenging thoughts. But you know what, I’m a man. I’m human. But I don’t act on it. I don’t fuel it. We can do this guys. Have faith, and be a fighter. I need your support just as much if not more as you may need mine.