I want to turn over a new leaf

I don’t usually do these types of things; however, right now I am completely desperate. I lost an amazing career job at the end of January, and I’ll be honest I have been severely depressed since. So depressed that I don’t leave the house anymore. I have been slowly cutting off friends and family and my relationship with my children has been nonexistent. The only thing that has bought me happiness lately is food and porn. I have been watching porn since pre-teenage years and it has been my hardest addiction in life. I have tried so many times to quit but I never make it more than a month. I am to the point now that I want to completely transform my life and become disciplined in all aspects of my life. Lust, temptation, and temporary pleasure has ruined me. I really need help because I feel like fixing this will save my life. I literally have tears running down my face as I am writing this. I do not feel like a man and I desperately need to make some changes. This is one of the biggest changes that I want to start with. Really just wanted to get that off my chest, just really need some encouraging words. Thank you in advance to anyone that took the time out to read this. Any positive feedback would be appreciated.