Rough Night
Day 2
by Lincoln
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Day two and my usual trigger fired up. My wife and I planned on sex after the kids went down and I obviously was looking forward to it. Once the boys go down, I get hit with the “yeah we can do it but I’m just exhausted” line and that’s usually when I spiral. The feelings get hurt and I turn to porn. Last night I just moved on, turned the lights off and prayed. I imagined behind held in God’s hands and asked for peace. The anger and hurt slowly went away along with the pull. Knowing I have more to myself than lust is a reminder I am really working on telling myself. Last night sucked, but I didn’t give in. One more day.
Amen Lincoln! This is so good, God is good! Praying that the spirit of lust is taken away! Praying for your wife as well! Maybe she’s going thru things you don’t know as well! Love her like Jesus loves you!