Your awareness, your remorse - all of these are signs you are on the right path. No one said quitting an addiction would be easy on the first try. It may take falling tens, hundreds, thousands of times until you get there. But you will start to notice each time you fall, you despise it a little more. You become more serious about the NEED to get over it. Just keep getting up every time, push yourself farther and farther and pretty soon you’ll be surprised how far you’ve come. God bless 🙏

Those are deep and useful, I appreciate y’all so much brothers💜

The first step to change is to give yourself the chance. Right now, you are not well mentally, which can make you spiritually sick. Learn how to be kind to yourself. Remember the golden rule found in the scriptures: Love your neighbors as yourself. How can you truly love others if you can’t love yourself? Practicing to love yourself is practicing to love others. You, like everyone else, are a creation of God, the image of Him. If you hate yourself, then to some degree, you carry a hatred towards He who made you. Know Love, know God, and you will know Yourself. He made you for great things, don’t let it get lost in the sins of this world. Satan knows you’re valuable, but he wants you to think you are worthless. That’s one of the many ways he gets people to join him in hell.

Talking**

View your recovery in stages. Sounds like you are in the infancy stages of breaking it. What that means is: set realistic expectations of yourself. It’s very likely to relapse a few times before you REALLY get a long streak under your belt. This is just the struggle and taking so negatively about yourself isn’t going to make that better, ma boy. Get back up.

Amen

You don’t suck. You’re not alone brother I’m in the exact same boat right now. May God be with both of us, guiding and protecting us from sin.