I first got exposed to explicit content back when I was 11 years old and it traumatized me for life. I stayed away from it for a while but as I got older and hormones started to kick in I got curious, and eventually became addicted… It was a trap. A trap that I thought I could never escape. I became anxious, insecure, angry, and fearful. Throughout my youth, it was nothing but an ongoing on and off cycle of pornography and self pleasure. It has ruined many relationships, and the way I viewed intimacy. I lived life with nothing but guilt, same, and depressed. Growing up in a Christian household I learned how wrong it was to live in sin, and how dangerous it was to sin against your own body, also known as, lust. I have became very depressed living in sin, which made me very desperate to be free from it. This feeling of desperation pushed me closer to Jesus and building a relationship with him. I started going to church a lot and getting involved every opportunity I could. I finally let go of my sin but there were still moments where I fell short. I felt as if the lord was still trying to tell me that I needed work on. While in my season of depression I completely neglected my health and did nothing but lay around, ate junk food. Which did not help my addictions. So I came to a conclusion that I needed to take better care of my body. I started drinking nothing but water, stopped eating junk food and started going to the gym. Now I gained my confidence back and feel better than I ever have. Just know that you are not alone and you can overcome this whoever you are. God is so good and he can take you out of the most impossible situations. I’m praying for my community, for those who are struggling with the same issues I dealt with. God bless yall you got this In JESUS name!