Prove to myself
I just thought of another reason why I need this. I really just need to know if im addicted or not. I have gone without it for periods of time in my life and sometimes have absolutely no desire to see any of it. Even look at it and go “nah” and close it and move on. There are just times where im really “wound up” and it’s my wife and my self handling it. She can only do so much lol. I stop drinking for months out of the year to prove to myself the exact same thing.
That makes sense to me. I don’t know if I’m hyper sexual or not. Sometimes I barely think about it if at all the others it’s like I consume it a few times a week.