Really close

I was really close to looking up porn I got on my MacBook to do some work on my resume and I ended up opening up a private tab search up porn and when it popped up what website to go to I closed it out and turned my Mac off I did winded up masturbating without and eventually gave in to finishing but I did it without watching porn for the 1st time my relapse timer is strictly for not viewing any type of porn but I also do want to stop fapping too so I’m going to put down in my notes that I failed on that part but still haven’t viewed any porn may god forgive me and everyone here