Accountability
I’m resetting my streak after 9 days. Yesterday and today, I nearly relapsed watching porn. I looked it up and looked at some pictures. Thankfully I stopped looking at it before I masturbated to it. But after that I went and masturbated without anything. Thankfully today, I don’t feel horrible about it like I usually would. I didn’t think it was a relapse at first. But now that I look more into it. I feel like it is a relapse. But what I’m feeling is that I’ve grown to the point of where I’m able to turn it off knowing it’s not good. So for the next week I’m gonna focus on controlling my urges better and not looking it up and not masturbating at all. Even without porn. I’m gonna take it week by week. Open my bible again, keep busy and grind.
If it makes you feel better I feel now that I have gotten to the point I’m at now. I still get tempted but I feel I have hit more of a flatline and goals are easier to smash. Don’t give up 😊