Lonely

I feel like a lot of this has to do with loneliness. There are moments where I feel this deep sadness, I have no friends and especially when I sit alone in my room it hits. Those moments (and when boredom hits) are moments I give in to the fucked up porn. It makes me feel comfortable, it's become a habit. I hope starting tomorrow I can bring myself to actually restart fixing myself or Im afraid of how many times Im gonna have to deal with those moods