does this count

I would say that it’s not porn, though I think you still need to monitor your dependency on using that to get off over your partner. IMO I think it’s a great way to ween off porn as like almost a middle ground where you can find the appreciation you have for you and your partners relationship with each other

I have been asking the same question to myself Angelo, as I am in the same boat. But I don’t feel the shame when I watch the ones we made as I do porn. I would say I agree with James though as soon as I feel the urge to look elsewhere is a sign that the videos have to go. Fortunately I haven’t looked elsewhere. So I can keep them for now. I just don’t like the thought of losing something that I feel adds intimacy in my relationship especially when we do distance.

to me, yes that would count as porn. A visual stimulate through a video that arouses sexually you that isn’t sex. Sounds like porn to me. Just my opinion

Depends on your circumstances I would say dude. If it makes you feel conflicted I would say cut it out. If I was you, I would cut it out and focus that energy on your relationship. Try and go cold turkey and cut out anything that causes you to lust to a screen or images - and focus on turning that into intimacy with your partner. If you really struggle with cold turkey you could use it as a temporary measure to wean yourself off of pornography, but I would say try and stay away for the moment and see how you get on. You’ve got this brother