Feeling optimistic

Just relapsed pretty hard after a 9 day streak. As bad as I would usually feel after a relapse, it’s not hitting me the same. What I realized is that I made a choice to do what I did. A serious of deliberate choices to get to a point where I would relapse. Now you can look at that and think that you should feel even worse because you’re choosing to “give in” or “give up”. But honestly to me it makes me excited and has put a whole new perspective on this addiction. I have the choice to say no and so do y’all, may god bless yall and your journeys.