Hypocrisy ends now

I remember coming on her saying I’m going to remember a post I made and just keep adding on to it by posting more about achievements and real goals I managed to hit such as 7 days free when I hit that I posted and gloated about it to a friend of mine and he was proud of me as he’s helping me overcome this addiction and then I relapsed I went to the telegram group chat thinking did I really end this streak should I reset my counter? And I asked and yes I relapsed and reset my counter and the guilt rushed me and then for 3 weeks straight I was doing it everyday in the morning and night and the dopamine wasn’t worth it but now I’m enraged I can’t be bothered anymore I spent money I told someone about it and now it’s time I put this shit into good use the hypocrisy ends now me preaching about how bad it is and for me to then go home and feed into my own enemy is wild. This will be my last post I believe as of right now but when I hit 90 days I’ll be back I wish all the others best of luck and I will now silently overcome this addiction