it ends today.

since i was 13-14, ive been masturbating. it just became a part of my life, never thought of it as anything. 7 years later i can see now its been ruining me. recently ive gotten active on the nsfw side of twitter and getting exposed to the extreme taboo kinks there opened my eyes. i saw it appealing and attractive at first, and of course pnc hit, but it helped me realize that theres something wrong with me. everything about this is wrong. ive been in a relationship for over a year now, and i was still an addict throughout it all. ive just been watching porn behind her back, and im tired of lying to her and hiding it. when the time comes i’ll come clean to her, but i want to BE clean before i do so. i need to work on mysef before i share what ive been battling. i truly love the person ive been with and i cant handle hurting her and feeling this way anymore. today im finally gonna do better. it wont be easy but its not impossible. it ends today.