My Addiction
This is my first day trying something new, I don’t know how to feel about it because I felt all my life that had control over it. But whole time, I didn’t… I was just feeding myself into porno. Now I’ve been at least 8 years strong of beating my d!ck. Now I’m not tryna make this into a joke, I’m just tryna state who I am when I’m bored, alone, unloved, stressed or depressed. I would have never thought that I will be in this type of position. Kind of feel like a freak but at the same time I feel it’s natural. At least when I was growing up, I felt releasing was natural because that’s kind of what we are taught in school. But no one told us the hard truth of being really sexually active every day. From thinking, to imagining your that person, to even sexually day dreaming about the female in front of you. These were all taught to me as natural instincts of a boy. With all the alone time I had in my life, I can say me getting introduced to pornography is the worst thing that ever happen to me. I can’t even remember how it feels to not high full of energy and testosterone. Like I know the difference between when I was younger before I started my bad habits and now. Now with that paragraph it might look like I’m an extreme gooner. But I’m not, just a boy tryna find happiness and joy with fucking my body up. ( I smoke weed too, working on that also) IK ALOT MIGHT NOT READ THIS but I’m sure someone is in my position as well. I will be bringing more updates even if yall not interested. I’m ready for this journey, real shit
I read it bro and first of all YOU CAN DO IT! I had a similar problem like you. My brain was so damaged that I couldn't even sit in the bus without getting a boner because with every girl I saw I had fantasies and imagined of doing things with her. I was so addicted that I jerked off in school (later in work), when I've eaten alone (I didn't jerk off while eating but I watched porn and did it afterwards), before and after my training and even when I drove with the car. In the car I didn't even need porn, I instantly jerked off in my car when I stood on a red traffic light and saw a pretty girl standing on the sidewalk. I know it sounds weird and disgusting but it was my life for about 5-6 years. And my addiction was so big that at some days I played with my wiener 10+ times per day. And now look at me. I found a reason to change (God) and now I have no (or at least very little) struggles and I'm getting better and better everyday to fight against the urges. Its hard at the beginning but keep fighting bro. If anyone can do it, it's you