Starting the journey
I got introduced to it when I was around eight or nine years old. For most of my life, it was pretty casual. After my divorce, it became a daily thing. For the last two years, I haven’t gone more than six days and stretches like that only happened occasionally when it becomes inconvenient due to family visits or busy schedules, but as long as my day-to-day life is intact, I can’t help but to do it either before bed, in the middle of the night when I wake up, or if I wake up unusually early. It’s only once a day, but I really want to rid myself of this habit. I have always had pretty good results with dating, but as of today I have not had sex in one year and three months. I Feel as though I have zero desire in approaching women. Sometimes when I’m out, I noticed that I may be receiving “choosing signals,” but I don’t act on them. I don’t know if it’s because I’m afraid of rejection or if this is a side effect doing it so often. I had a pretty bad divorce so I don’t know if I’ve been coping with porn, but I’m ready for a change and to take my life to another level.
I can assure you the lack of desire to approach is a byproduct of this habit, it's not that you're afraid of rejection but that you've depleted that energy watching pornography. Your brain says why should we risk and put in all this effort when I can flood myself with dopamine from something so effortless and stimulating. Don't listen to these thoughts, they will lead you down the path of short term gratification at the expense of your future. You either sacrifice the present for the future or you sacrifice the future for the present. Pick long term gratification, and it will pay off in every area of your life. You've got this man head up