Bargaining with yourself
I recently relapsed after only 2 or 3 days off porn so a short streak, but I’m curious does anybody get to stages of bargaining with yourself on going back to porn based on mundane reasoning. I remember saying to myself last week « in 2025 I’ll be clean of porn » and just by making this acknowledgment a seed of compromise was instilled. I relapsed recently due to me insisting to myself that January 1st was when I really had to begin my journey so the urge to get it out of my system with binging seemed like a good argument. Regardless of this not being a good thing I’ll take the conviction of restraint I feel today as the starting point in a 2025 journey to clean living. What are some of the things that come into your mind as bargaining chips for watching porn/ if there are any? or if it’s just impulse. Most of my buddies don’t try to prevent their porn use so they purely act out of impulse from what they’ve told me, so I’d like to know if others are wired like myself.
Just imagine yourself from a third point of view and that everyone you know is watching you and counting on you