Day 5

For once maybe it was different the last relapse but I’ve gotten closer to God I wept and prayed I have been reading both the Bible and meditations form Marcus Aurelius, I have tried to be a better person overall, it feels different because I gave it to God I gave my solitude to him and understood it wasn’t a weakness or smn to feel bad about right? Because at the end I am who I have becomes because of it, it genuinely feels like by doing this keeping my cut routine taking creatine drinking more water, in the past 5 days I haven’t felt urges it feels like I am more spiritually connected because I have prayed for strength and it has worked both through the Bible and through church sure it’s not that big of a streak but I’m not feeling urges every day, that is why it feels different I don’t know tho. Whatever happens I’ll stay kind 🙂.