Human

Don’t forget that both you, and the people you’re watching are human. No one in this PMO equation said, “ I want to be addicted to porn” or “ I want to be a O F model” when they were young. In this battle it’s easy to get mad at the people producing this stuff, or the people who hurt you sexually, or introduced you to this kind of thing. All of this stuff came to fruition through the internal belief that people are not valued for being, but rather for what they can do. Used people, using people so that they feel less used, and more competent. It’s all just a vicious cycle. There’s a high chance that you’ve watched a porn star that went through S A when they were young, or a woman who consistently goes through the mental trauma of aborting fetuses regularly, fully knowing that she’s mutating herself to the point where she knows that parenthood outside of adoption isn’t a option. And even if adoption is an option after they look at her work history, who would want to put a kid through the humiliation of being the adopted kid of a porn star. If you’re fighting this addiction it’s because you believe that your worth it and that you deserve better, please extend this common decency to people who are on the other end of that cursed screen of yours. That pornstar didn’t force you to click, you didn’t slip on a banana peel and magically fall into that prostitute. Those occasions were the result of broken people, being lead by their broken desires. Money, sex, drugs, and affirmation. If you’re a praying man, pray for them. Ask God to soften your heart if it’s necessary, meditate on his word and imagine the turmoil he experiences every waking hour fully knowing what atrocities are taking place on an omnipresent level. If you’re secular, truly think about what it would take for you to come to the conclusion that sex work was a viable option. What “one bad day” would have to occur for you to fall down that path. I’m sorry for the essay length post, I just got hit by a wave of regret