Need to be better
Day 0
by Aariz
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About to watch invincible. Relapsed yesterday and feel absolutely shit about myself after working so hard this month. Genuinely think I lack a special connection with someone that makes me look for it in porn. Ffs I need to do better
Maybe that missing connection is internal? Who do you want to be better for? I find external motivation isn’t the always as helpful. When I sit down and describe (journal) who I want to be without porn, that feels more helpful than adopting the “should, need to, must” do better for someone else’s expectations. I have to remind myself that I also get to be one of the beneficiaries of changing for the better, so I matter, too.