The other side

I’m not gonna sit here and sugar coat it to you guys. Sometimes you won’t feel the benefits or even be aware of it and it’s okay. Before this current streak I was clean for 2 months and even then I didn’t feel any different from when I had to when I didn’t. At the most I was happy I didn’t feel shame anymore but nothing else. But if you find yourself in the same shoes as me, don’t feel discouraged that others are benefiting while you aren’t. We’re all wired differently and maybe you need more time, or this could be your test to see if you can persevere with pure faith that it’ll work out for you eventually. Keep your spirits strong for your victory could be in the next 10 minutes.