a lil tom hardy anecdote keeps me going

I always think about that one Tom Hardy interview where his friend gives him a parable about a boy who drowned in a flood because they couldn’t pull his leg out of some debris it was stuck in. His friend comments that they should have cut his leg off, so that the boy would still be alive today. If I really want to live, and save that part of me that’s drowning, I need to sever what’s holding me under the water. The bridges going back must be burned. If you want to live a full life, you know what you need to cut off. I’m struggling so much, too. I can’t sleep well, I carry so much guilt and pain. But I know I can do it, I know I want to live and bring out the part of me that I love and become that whole person. We can do it, we have to.