Day 0
by cash
154 upvotes
last night i watched porn and fapped, and after i didn't feel shame or regret. just a feeling of nothingness. as if i was telling myself, "that was a temporary high." but this morning i woke up and did it again. i knew from the night before how meaningless fapping is, yet i did it again. wtf??
That awareness you’re describing—that’s growth. Sometimes the body acts on old patterns before the mind catches up. Don’t shame yourself—just stay curious and keep choosing your goal, one moment at a time.