fuck da fap

Haven’t choked the chicken in about 10 days i think, i did get laid a couple times, sometimes the urge to sit there and jerk and watch porn seems easy but then i’m like nah, Ig is a fucking thirst trap stuff will pop up and kinda plant that seed but pluck that shit out these women are on a screen nothing beats the real thing especially when you haven’t gotten any in a. while and you stop jerkin sex feels super intense i got a laid a couple times felt amazing didn’t actually take 2 hours to cum i mean it’s kinda cool for the girl she gets to enjoy her self for a while sometimes they would even prefer me to finish a lot quicker any way i not sure where im going with this but yeah fuck da fap, not condoning sin or telling yall what to do im not perfect and ima keep it real, build up the confidence boys to stop wasting it on screens i know it’s hard i feel like im doing good i dont really care to watch porn anymore kinda just makes me feel lame as fuck, so hopefully this time around my streak will get a lot longer check ur thoughts my mind would try and tell me something or put the fear in me if i stopped watching porn and jacking off that i would suck in bed wich wasn’t true lol the mind is crazy don’t let it bullshit you not all these thoughts are yours they come they go some are yours some are intrusive some are the enemy some maybe from God but in the end you have the power to agree or disagree with negative. thoughts and patterns and water new trails of thinking bless yall guys reading this i know how it is to be in the super entangled darkness of this shit i wouldn’t say i’m out of it but i’m learning how to deal with it alot better thank God and thank Jesus for being perfect cause i kno i ain’t shit i need em always. Don’t lose hope i’ve relapsed so many times and i thought i was going to die of just guilt shame a depression, but ima tell you one thing that just fuels the flame , do yall think God wants us walking around depressed, controlled and defeated by our emotions and failures everyday or do you think he would tell us we have the power to work and make change with him and a within our selves. once again fuck da fap go get some human interaction it’s good for u