Break the endless cycle

“One more time” “one more time won’t hurt” it do hurt guys, I made it to day 6 at first got hella depressed relapsed then for almost two weeks kept relapsing back in the endless cycle acting like nothing was wrong running away from all my problems. I’m back at day 14 of no porn or masterbation. I feel like a whole new person. I’m not hiding from my Problems anymore I get up and I do shit now I lock in with school go to college happy and excited. I am now aware of my future problems and take action for them. I haven’t been putting girls on pedestals and letting them run my life when people leave I let them leave I don’t metaphorically bang on the door anymore like a lil bitch this applies to losing friends and girls I started talking too. I imagine my future wife and how she wouldn’t deserve someone trapped in that endless cycle with all the side effects creating a bad relationship.