Starting the Journey (again)

I found this app after a relapse last night and the feeling of immediate shame and guilt. I’ve struggled with this for 13 years and it’s kept me in bondage. I kept my struggle with porn a secret throughout the entirety of my now failed marriage and in recent months my relapses have gotten more frequent. I was exposed to porn at a young age and it has gripped me ever since. I can go a couple of days or even weeks without relapsing, but then when I think I’ve built up enough willpower, I relapse again. I’m done feeling the guilt. I’m done feeling the shame, and I want to be free. I’m a Christian and the spiritual weight and impact this has on my soul is overwhelming. I often relapse when I’m alone and bored, or at night when I feel alone. Today is the day I quit porn completely. So I’m starting the journey, again, but this is the first time I’ve tried an app or community like this.