Battle Buddies: A Fresh Start
Today was my first full day after relapse, and I just have this overwhelming sense of peace and everything went pretty smoothly. I started doing my checklists again, which had definitely helped put my energy into something else other than wasting it all on the vileness of pornography. I know this is a lame excuse but given that I’ve been so busy over the past few days I haven’t been able to get into the word as much as I want to. The enemy is trying to keep me busy, thus making me fatigued enough to start throwing haymakers at me in hopes of getting me to fall. To my brothers Michael, Robert and Jan: Pray for me throughout this week. The fatigue I’m feeling right now is no coincidence. It’s the devil trying to get me into a spot of vulnerability, and I am not gonna let that happen. Also one question: is it ok to make Bible reading a chore for the purpose of making it a habit? I know that the Lord doesn’t want us to view it as that but if it’s going to be a way to help me get into it on a consistent basis it should be fine, right? Anyway, God bless, and onto continuing round 2 of this spiritual battle!
Reading the Bible can be a good start. Don't think of it as a chore, though. Think of it as a chance to grow closer to God. He has never stopped believing in you. I started reading the Bible not too long ago. I even decided to make it a goal to focus on reading the scriptures during Lent. It has helped in this journey. I will be praying for you, brother. As your faith grows, so does your strength to over come this temptation of ours. I am proud that you keep getting up. Because that's how we win this. No matter how many times we fall we get back up and continue this journey of ours. I believe in you!