Root of my problem

Might be a long read but here we go I was questioning myself why I was really addicted to porn and masturbation. One day when I was relapsing, it suddenly hit me that all I wanted, was intimacy and love from a genuine partner. Since I couldn't get that anymore since I recently broke up with my ex, I chased porn and masturbation to replace the feeling. But once the post nut clarity hit, I realised that I was simply drugging myself with a false sense of love. That the scenarios I watched on the screen was just me imagining myself in it, receiving intimacy. It hit me how pathetic I look, rubbing myself off in my bed, alone and sweaty imagining myself get laid. It made me feel so disappointed in myself, but also helped me find reason to battle my temptations. Perhaps you guys can relate God bless, i love you.