Be vigilant..
I dont watch Corn, but recently ive been breaking no fap one too many times.. So a couple months ago i broke up with my now Ex, and i had a complete 180 turnaround, i somehow instantly stopped nicotine and fast food consumption, stopped jerking off and went clean for 2 months, The level of discipline i gained overnight was an absolutely exponential.. until.. 60 days in, I went to a hooker, i couldnt stand not releasing from Fapping, and the thought of putting in time energy and effort into talking and dating women was something i didnt want to put in, so i thought hooker cant be that bad eh? Il just do my business and get back to work, but that day i felt so damn disgusted of myself, ashamed and embarrassed, but since that day i started giving in and fapped regularly, started justifying cigarettes, and now im stuck, discipline is still there but just not at the high level i was expecting. Im forcing myself not to buy cigarettes, i can go a week or 2 but a voice is justifying 'its only socially', and my question for you guys is this, Is Going without sex bad mentally? Because fapping is out the equation, hookers are controversial but doesnt align with the "superior man" although many successful people have fun with hookers (But they already made it), talking and dating women takes time and effort and distraction if you dont fully havr the discipline to move through life unshaken by women. So does that mean im left with semen retention until ive become the best version of myself to then allow myself to have pussy on standby?
Save it for someone who loves you. Your next nut should be for your wife bro. Other that that, I personally think you’re just wasting time and wasting your value as a man. Semen retained turns into testosterone. Do what makes you feel the most valued.