Struggle

Girlfriend of 4 months asked me if I love her after drunk sex. I told her I wasn’t there yet, but that I care deeply about her (which is true). She didn’t take it well and she asked for some time apart. I haven’t told her about my addiction, but I can tell she knows. Sex is a struggle, I can barely feel anything, and unless I cycle through pornographic images in my head, I can’t finish. She’s noticed my lack of attention on her during that. I like this woman, despite her problems. I can excuse and understand them because of my own. But I feel like I just ended a good thing just because I can’t connect intimately in a way she needs. Idk, struggling today guys.