I’m tired
11 days, I feel weak and hadn’t seen anything that would affect me like a girl in insta trying to sell her OF until today and I’m at the verge of relapsing I’m trying not to but I just thought that when I watching porn and beating it was because I had an addiction I mean I kinda do but i realised that what I need is intimacy because I haven’t had any in a year and it has been driving nuts ,it’s loneliness that has been the issue all this time but I have big problems with socialising I’m sadly an introvert and antisocial and I don’t know how to deal with it I’ve tried to be more social and try to go out more often but it doesn’t really help because all I’m thinking is that if I try and socialise I won’t be able to fit plus I suck at flirting ,I have no confidence because I’m anxious a lot. I don’t know how to deal with this please help me I can’t proceed I’m trying my best not to relapse .
Stay strong my brother. I promise on the other side of this is everything you want and desire. Focus on who you want to become and pray that you can see that vision clear.