Heart Pour.

Thank you for the comment, I can see now what people talk about when it comes to not being alone in struggles, I don't wish to think about how long this has been hurting us since children. I used to be a super confident energetic boy, maybe it was just becoming a teen and harmones but now I have to wonder if the years of it through a stage of manys lives where your mind and body is already going through chnage, how much that was truly hurting my self growth

I felt the same way at the same way the beginning of my journey - it was one of the biggest reasons I quit - I wanted to find and be me without any hold back. Full 100% authentic unforgiving me. 39 days in and I can tell you, the security you that begins to grow inside yourself is incredibly precious. I already feel significantly more confident than I have before. Still not 100% where I want to be but I’m taking it day by day. I was also addicted as a child. I remind myself that this is a battle that takes time especially in my case and perhaps yours too? Anyway, much love hope this helps. You got this shit, even if you have to fake the confidence in the beginning , do it. Find your why and use that to motivate you everyday.